I was being lazy all around the house until about 9AM, then took a bath and went off to campus looking like this:
Completely unimaginative but was perfectly suited for the International Taxation study session I was gonna have with some friends at the library as well as for meeting my academic counselor to consult about my internship report.
I'm thinking of asking DBS if I could be put in risk management. But I'm absolutely at lost how to put that without sounding so ungrateful. Argh.
Frustating things aside. The sun was unbearably unfriendly today. I was squinting the whole day and now I can't help but wonder whether I've gotten tanner *NO!!!* from being exposed to the sunlight. Shoot. Just what is it with South East Asians and their preference to lighter skin complexion???!! On top of that the shirt made a me have a bit of a tummy there but who cares.
So I had this interview earlier this morning with Mr. Aries of HR Department DBS and Mrs. Ariani of IBG. My stomach is lurching, turning, and all twisted inside. I am excited and nervous at the same time but mostly scared. Terrified. Cowering in fear. Petrified. Shaken. Panic-stricken. Aghast...
They're gonna call me later (I do hope I get a call pls!!!) but in the meantime it keeps me wondering how I'm gonna do my report, what I'm going to write, and whether it's gonna be accepted for someone taking an Accounting and Finance major. I mean it's CORPORATE BANKING!!!Account management! I don't know what I'll be doing!!! They tried to give me a big picture and behind all that nodding and smiling, I'm all muddled and confused inside! Yet on the other hand I keep sorting out my clothes in my head thinking of all the possibilities of clothing attires that I can mix and match for work.[!!!]
Anyways I want hats.Floppy hats and Trilbies.And rings too.Big, catch-everybody's-attention rings. I actually found 2 rings I liked--I forgot whether I've told you guys about this before in my previous post(s)--during Ladies' Day Citos bazaar last week but decided not to buy them. You can imagine the regret I felt (and feel) afterwards... :( And fringe tubular scarves, too--I might make an online purchase sometime this week I think.
I want to post pics but I'm too jittery right now to do so. :( Wish me luck. :( :( :(
Anyways, this I wore on Friday. It was a pretty lazy day, despite me having 3 classes that day, and it called for a lazy outfit too. But, it wasn't my outfit I want to focus on! It was H's.
H looked gorgeous that day!
And though it doesn't show in the pic (damn you crappy cellphone photos!)--what with that mean face and crappy quality pic--the shirt was actually this checkered crisscross pattern of purple (of course), red, blue, and white.
It was absolute hearts from the moment I saw him that day! :)
Another funny thing was that he was actually driving behind my car that morning and he kept flashing his lights at me and honking. But I ignored him and was all like, "Just who is that idiot of a driver!?" LOL.
Now this one I wore on Thursday.
I have literally TONS (well not really but a lot anyways) of skorts and this was one of them.
Skorts and culotte shorts are the best thing to put on when you want to get lazy but not sloppy. :)
And though I wear them a lot, it was always a pleasure (for me at least) to hear people exclaim, "Whoa that's actually shorts??!!!" LOL.
Anyways yesterday Nanda, Ratih, Dewi and I went for a bit of girlish fun at Pondok Indah Mall. I'll post the pics later as soon as Nanda's uploaded them lol. (My phone was dead and so I couldn't take crappy cellphone pics for you guys LOL.)
As today was a lazy day--I ate breakfast before taking a bath LOL, nothing could get lazier than that--I now present you a crappy picture of me right after waking up.
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Yes and you get a free crappy pose to go along with the pic as well!!! :)
I posted a 1996 Cool Shavin' Ken Commercial in Hasbi's facebook account. And after a minute or two of browsing around Barbie Collectors' Channel, I was gonna post a vid of the 1990 Barbie Children Summit or something, which I thought cool.
BUT seemingly someone beat me to it.
Not that she *yes I'm hating* posted the vid I was gonna post... But suddenly she posted lots of Barbie vids which I knew immediately she got the idea from reading Hasbi's wall.
Damn it.
Anyways I want Francie's hair! So I can be swingin' too!!! ;)
It's gonna be winter there so I'm preparing winter clothings for the occasion.
The thing is I don't really know what type of clothes they do wear in Australia. And though I've searched the net and asked some friends, I'm still not satisfied.
But what I do know is that they're pretty casual down under and that the weather there isn't really very cold. I've read up on the net that winter there is like spring in London. If spring in London is like Autumn in NY, then I really shouldn't dress very heavily.
These are some inspirations, although I doubt very much that I'll be able to dress like them... ;)
Stylist, Celestine Cooney, Yohji Yamamoto fashion show, May 2008
Jane Keltner, Gloria Baume, Taylor Tomasi of Teen Vogue, March 2008
Carine Roitfeld, Christian Dior fashion show, February 2008
Julia Frakes (left) and "Givenchy bow headband lady" (right), Paris Fashion Week, April 2009
Now these are looks that I know I can't pull off... (Not like I can pull off the previous three though LOL.) But I'd love to fantasize... :P
Models Sasha Pivovarova and Vlada Roslyakova, Chanel show, April 2009
The amazing and effortless KateLanphear, Paris Fashion Week, April 2009
The images are from the JAK & JIL blog. The first three are actually from their old blog, and you should actually hear me squeak "Eep!" when I found the pics posted on the front page. :)
Of all the coincidence, I just read on Garance Doré:
Girls in Australia, they take on autumn with a philosophy. It never really does get cold anyway. In the boutiques, sweaters mix it up with swimsuits and sandals. They pick out a few warmer pieces from a winter wardrobe but wear them with bare legs and caramel skin.
It’s like it’s make-believe winter, just for fun or something.
I love this interseasonal mix but it totally drives me crazy: I’m so jealous! And here I am, thinking I would come back and find springtime!
Fainting and seizures. That was exactly what had happened today.
When I was still in elementary school, I had a friend Rahmi who was prone to fainting during gym class or flag ceremonies. Then I had wondered what it must have felt like to just black out like that. Little did I know that I would experience it later in life, notably today.
I was at my dad's office, getting my blood tested, and though I was--and am--VERY much afraid of needles, it was a regular thing.
And so I went in the lab, doing the usual my shutting-my-eyes-tight-while-having-my-blood-taken thing, and then got out of there as fast as my feet could take me.
The thing is I was feeling mighty nauseous, my vision was blurry and I was getting lightheaded. My mom gave me some mineral water to drink and we sat down as I wasn't feeling so well.
And then everything went BLACK.
I imagine being electrocuted must feel very similar to the fit I was having as I could feel the electric surge running through my body. My whole body went "dead" and I seemingly have no strength for movement. I could hear voices but could only make out smudges of colors and abstract shapes around me as I stirred into consciousness. They put me in a wheelchair and I was steered to one of the rooms in the clinic.
They set me up with oxygen, as I couldn't breathe properly. I could hear the nurse/doctor talking to my mom asking questions "Has this ever happened before?" to which my mom said no.
They then checked my heart and not long after took my blood AGAIN[!!!] and checked my tension. After that they told me to take a rest while waiting for the results to come out.
I had low blood pressure, that much I knew and that was also the result. In addition my glucose level was low.
We figured it was because I had been going home so late at night these days, usually 8:30 PM, and when I did get to the house I didn't immediately rest or take a break from all the feverish activities I was doing. Hence me collapsing and having a spell.
But after resting and getting something to eat I felt a whole lot better. I was even able to drive home! :)
In addition to that I went to Senayan City, one of Jakarta's major malls, and even picked up both of my sisters at their schools.
I guess I had been tiring myself out lately, and it looks like tonight I have to do so again as I have to study for tomorrow's International Taxation quiz plus I have to finish two assignments (International Taxation and Auditing 202) that are due tomorrow... Damn it. :(
Today I'll be doing a series of blog posts to let the blog catch up to current events.
The first post is on last Thursday's outfit, of which Hasbi said I was very huggable in indeed.
That sounded like a poor pick-up line coming out of his mouth but I wonder whether that was true for all guys--that girls look huggable on some type of outfits more than others--and whether one's huggability by a guy is universally shared by all.
I know the latter was rather unlikely.
But Hasbi explained of the former that there were outfits that I wore that made him want to hug me more than others. This didn't mean that while I was wearing other less huggable outfits, he wouldn't want to hug me, but certain outfits do kindle a certain longing for him to hug me.
In short, certain outfits act like "hug-stimulants" that when worn (by the wearer) and seen (by the observer), they would incite the observant's hugging desire to the wearer.
I didn't know, and still don't frankly, what was so special about what I wore as I though it made me look very full up top (more than usual) and even fatter. But Hasbi gave me a hug that day so maybe I should wear it more lol.
I asked him in what outfits did I look more huggable than others and the events when my outfit inspired him to hug me.
He said it was on those days when I put in more efforts in my outfits, which is rare, and I realized that more often than not I look very un-huggable indeed. :'( :p
I've been wanting to post my outfit for last Thursday. But I never seem to have the chance to.
Anyhow, my lipstick/lipgloss is running out and now I haven't been wearing it to campus and am just saving it for when I go out.
I've looked everywhere in Jakarta's major malls whether they have my lipstick/lipgloss--yes it has that dual quality of being both a lipstick and lipgloss at the same time without being too shiny or glossy like you've eaten something oily.
But alas they don't have it. :'(
It's a Japanese brand, Couleur Inc., and I can only buy it when I go to Singapore during vacations.
But for now I'm just content trying to find its replacement, at least something that has the same bright orangey-red color/tinge to it.
I've been meaning to post this for some time now but what with schoolwork and presentations and getting an internship and all, it's been quite hard to do so.
Anyways, like I said in Colon Parenthesis. :), I went to Jogja last week and bought home quite a LOT of stuffs.
I had fallen in LOVE with it as soon as I laid eyes on it. And without hesitating I immediately bought it.
The salmon-colored dragon-like details on the front that extend to the back and arms, the lavender zigzag vertical patterns as well as the blue flowers... I absolutely love it!
The only thing is it made me look old, at least in my opinion. And my mom actually agreed!
We both concurred that it made me look 20-something.
And I'm 18!!!
But it didn't make me love the blouse less though hehe. It's just that you won't see me wear it often. ;)
On top of the batik blouses and dresses, I also bought home accessories, among which were Batik bangles and scarves. I totally went crazy for the accessories and literally SPLURGED.
I mean who can help it? They were so cute...
And so the other day I wore my new Batik bangles and necklaces to campus. See the pattern on the bangles? Simply adorable. :)
I really like wearing loose shirts like this gray buttoned-down shirt on the pic. The thing is it's quite hard to find shirts that'll come out as loose when I wear them as I'm full up top. This really contradicts my lower part of body as it's real skinny.
I read in magazines that I have what you call an apple-shaped body, or even a cone-shaped body. And I agree. My shoulder blades are wider than my hips. And I wear size L shirts with size 26 pants!
Anyways, gotta get to school. I'm already late as it is. :)
P.s. Yes that's the new hair. Not so Katy Perry-ish anymore now that the styling's wore off lol.
I'vebeen getting lazylately and I've got nothing interesting to post. The last exciting thing I did was when I went to INACRAFT 2009 and bought a new pair of wedges, and then to Jogja where I bought home about 15 batik silk scarves--I think--and also about 5 batik blouses and dresses (can't wait to wear them!!!). The real thing is I'm too lazy to take pictures of them... Or even to post the event in the blog lol.
Schoolwork's been crazy lately. Not only am I OVERLOADED with the assignments, but there's this thing about whether I should graduate normally (4 years) or whether I should graduate early (3.5 years), trying to do a cost and benefit analysis of both and finding out that I wouldn't be worse off or better off taking one or the other.
So now I'm finding a place for me to have an internship for the final assignment.
And it's CRAAAZY hard!
I almost missed Aikido yesterday because I was deeply engrossed in reading Wicked by Gregory Maguire. But after attending the class, I almost wished I had just read Wicked instead of attending the lesson.
Aikido yesterday was SUCKY because of Hakim Sensei. And the fact that Cici (my closest friend at the dojo) wasn't there made it even worse. Man! I really looked forward for today's lesson with Jamal Sensei but there was no class today... :(
And then my-not-really-ex-boyfriendgot mad because I didn't pick up any of his calls for the whole day and after we made up that night, I got mad because of something that he said.
But at the end of the day, I think this strip best summarizes how I feel:
I'm actually in the middle of a class right now LOL, using the class computer to post an entry.
It's been so long. And I've been so busy with school stuffs.
Anyways I'm gonna post one of my favorite pics because it incorporates all the things that I love into one very beautiful picture! :D
1. Floral patterns, especially on skirts 2. Grey stockings 3. Bracelets 4. Scarves 5. Pink, Salmon, Peach 7. And stuff because the assistant professor standing behind my back lol. :D
6:20 PM 4/24/2009 A friend of mine Yosu joked, "Who died that you're wearing all black the last few days?!"
This Friday.
Now Yosu's taking it a biiiiiiiit far as it's only been two days. But him saying that made me realize that without realizing it (when I put the clothes on), it's been two days in a row nowthat I've been wearing an all-black outfit. :)
Now I've made you all confused.
My friend Nining said, upon seeing me today at campus, that I look slimmer. And I told her it's all that black. That it possessed a "slimming effect" on people.
But then I realized that yesterday, even though I wore all black like today, I looked far than slim.
This Thursday.
I looked fat, even.
And so my theory that black has a slimming effect failed to prove itself.
After studying yesterday's circumstances again, three things can be inferred:
Loose flowing tops, even though it's black, are not complemented with loose flowing jackets
One should make sure that one has pants that are the appropriate length to pair with one's flats. I think mine weren't and could be 1-2 cm longer
When one's picture is taken while one's carrying quite a big bag, make sure that one's hand(s) do(es) not look dead. I made that mistake a few times as you can see. Not promising I won't make the same mistakes though lol
But let's not think of them as mistakes...let's just say they're ventures.Fashion ventures. Me taking a crack at looking good lol. :D :D :D
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4:48 AM 4/25/2009
P.s. Despite all that, the things that I do like from Thursday's outfits were the patterns on the top and on the jacket...
I couldn't help it they were floral!!! :)
Plus they really do look good (separately), which made pairing them both seemed like a good idea at the time lol.
The above sentence means literally HAPPY KARTINI'S DAY!!! :D
Today all Indonesians celebrate the birthday of our beloved IbuKartini, a national heroine most famous for her letters (later compiled into a very famous book Door Duistermis tox Licht--Dutch for After the Dark Came the Light), in which she expressed her views generally on the social condition at the time and specifically on women rights (especially Javanese).
Yesterday's day out with the ex captured by a camera phone but failed because it's blurred plus I was having a total bad hair day.
The ex.
LOL. Although I do think that I look rather ravishing in my new glasses, apparently my camera phone doesn't agree that much LOL. I look okay though in my opinion. :D
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Anyways, I found my mom's scarf!!! :D
It doesn't really look it in the pic but it's a SulawesiBatik print (Bugis) in a rich purple color with complementary fuchsia, silver, green, and orange patterns. The red mini dress was also Batik and I'm definitely packing them both to Australia for AMUNC.
I have a runny nose that is triggered whenever I get into contact with water. When I went to take a wudhu, my nose began to run; after I washed my face in the bathroom sink, my nose ran again; after I took a bath, there it ran again. And it took such a long time before it stopped!
When you read Arabic, there are certain length and tones and ways of articulating the letters, words and sentences. And because of that runny nose I wasn't able to inhale and/or exhale properly, which of course affects my recital of the holy verses.
I had a box of tissue on my left and every now and so often, in the middle of an ayat, or when I've finished one, I would blow my nose hard in order to get rid of all that mucus, although unsuccessfully I must tell you. This was okay when it was my turn to deliver the verses, but when it was others', I don't think one could hear what the other recited. Proper execution of the verses, in terms of how they are read and pronounced/stated was crucial in delivering the verses and its meaning correctly, and I was afraid that my blowing and sneezing prohibited the feedback that came in perfecting the delivery.
Yeah so I messed that up.
But apart from that my mom bought me new glasses!!!
We went to the optician yesterday to pick out a new glasses for me as my old one has been stolen, and my older one, though as adorable and as stylish [yes it is still in style ;) and I don't think it will ever go out of] as it is, is old. Hehe.
After a looooooooooooong, time of trying out glasses--there really were about 50 or so [no kidding!] glasses on the counter that I've tried on and all looked good on me [I swear you they ALL look GOOD on me! ;) Seriously though]--my choice came down to two pairs.
One was by Cartier and the other was Levi's.
I fell in LOVE with both of them, although my heart swayed more in to the Cartier's, the shape was unique, though both was rectangular, and both looked mighty GOOD on me.
But my mom was having second thoughts. And so we reasoned. And as moms are ALWAYS right,I went home with the Levi's instead and was incredibly HAPPY about it.
Whenever I caught a glimpse of myself reflected in mirrors, glass doors or in car windows and etc, I'd unconsciously smile feeling good about my appearance lol. This was really rather unwise as it was other people who worried that something bizzarre had happened up there in the attic. ;)
But having that new glasses reminded me terribly of my old glasses. It was Armani Next and had the brightest lime green rim and handles you've ever seen that it looked almost yellow at times.
I have never seen anybody wearing that glasses EVER in my life and I had thought that if not in the whole world, then in all of Indonesia I must have been the ONLY one who possessed that pair of glasses.
I cried in my room thinking of old Lemony [named after a favorite author]. And the fact that my room was the color lime green didn't help either and only pushed me into a deeper depression.
I had never found out where it went, where I lost it, and when.
It all remained a mistery.
A real ugly picture of me with Vada and Rora while wearing old Lemony. I actually wanted to post another pic that was more appropriate (read: in which I look good) but this was the easiest to access (read: can be saved from Rora's friendster photos). :(
Lemony please come back to me I miss you.
And if there is anybody who's seen that glasses [its case was white and had a matching--lime green--lense cleaning cloth in it] I am willing to pay you a significant amount of money.
Pretty ironic too as the day had started pretty nicely indeed and I had thought that it was just gonna be full of laughs and silliness and having fun with friends.., but turned out that I was wrong.
I won't go into details here else I'd succumb to my "teenage angst" mode lol. But the thing is: it SUCKS fighting with your best friend[!].
I was in a bad mood all day and night and just simply couldn't concentrate on anything else besides the fight. On top of that, almost everybody got a share of my mood. My not-really-ex-boyfriend, acquintances, associates and classmates, and even innocent passerbys! I was making quite a show mind you.
As soon as I got home I called the "best friend" and gave her a piece of my mind only to find out that it wasall for naught. Good thing I have Rora--my bestest and oldest friend in university that was closer to being on top of it all my personal psychiatrist/psychologist/psychoanalyst--was available to listen to all my problems, gave feedback, and even some fabulous suggestions to take care of the situation.
It had seemed as if some of the knives that were sticking out of my chest were pulled out and though bleeding, the blood was coagulating and the wounds were slowly closing. But still it ruined my mood for the rest of the day.
I had looked forward to Aikido practice to vent off a bit of my anger but found it VERY HARD to concentrate and ended up messing up all the moves and maneuvers and to top it off,Sensei Hakim was being VERY ANNOYING indeed. I hated him very much today.
Today was a BAD DAY.
I wish tomorrow would be better.
The only good thing about today was that Matt didn't get eliminated from II. And even that I couldn't enjoy because of that lack of concentration.
I hate today very much indeed. And I'm not exactly looking forward to tomorrow either for fear of running into the "best friend." And Saturday's even WORSE! We have 3 CLASSES TOGETHER.
...oh PSAK 55, both the 1999 and the 2006 revision!!!"
Yes I sound deranged, but at this point deranged is a pretty good word to describe the state I'm in LOL.
I started working on the assignment at about 2:30 AM, and now it's 4:20 so I'm pretty beat by now. But hey! At least I'm finished! ;)
But one thing to be sure, that I am never gonna follow anyways LOL, is that working and browsing don't actually complement each other very well. :D :D :D That is of course a very well-known common fact.
But I just couldn't help myself and ended up browsing for Iekeline (read: Ee-kel-een-ah) Stange instead haha! It's just amazing how she manages to look so...surreal. Maybe it's that hard-to-pronounce name and the CRAZY cheekbones and the pale complexion but most of all it's her style. Absolutely ♥. :D
-Raymond Chandler (American writer and author of detective fiction, 1888-1959)
LOL. I'm on a blogroll. Seems kinda ironic because some days ago I didn't have anything to say in my blog, or even to the people around me.
It's crazy how the power of the mind works. And how motivated you are to do something when you're happy.
Anywaaaaaaaayys, I'm not a swimsuit person myself.... No, that's wrong. Well I do wear swimsuits when I swim, or rather wetsuits, becauseI don't want to get tanned. *Btw I've been meaning to post about being tan and its connection to the Indonesian "standard" of beauty.*
They're available on Bleubird, this vintage shop, but there are three constraints. The first is as I've said, I wouldn't want to get tanned. Second, they're quite expensive when converted into Indonesian rupiahs. And thiiird, they're vintage.
Vintage clothing is a generic term for new or second handgarments originating from a previous era. The phrase is also used in connection with a retail outlet, e.g. "vintage clothing store." It can also be used as an adjective: "This dress is vintage.
The word vintage is copied from its use in wine terminology, as a more elegant-seeming euphemism for "old" clothes.
The definition alone made me a bit squeamish. Remember that this is a bathing suit, people.
She ties her bathrobe belt in a square knot and then checks to make sure the ends are exactly even, can often be found standing casually in a half cat stance, and puts her hands together in a martial arts bow position after grace at the dinner table.
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Camilla Belle
Completely unimaginative but was perfectly suited for the International Taxation study session I was gonna have with some friends at the library as well as for meeting my academic counselor to consult about my internship report.
Enough said.
Now this one I wore on Thursday.
Stylist, Celestine Cooney, Yohji Yamamoto fashion show, May 2008
Jane Keltner, Gloria Baume, Taylor Tomasi of Teen Vogue, March 2008
Carine Roitfeld, Christian Dior fashion show, February 2008
Julia Frakes (left) and "Givenchy bow headband lady" (right), Paris Fashion Week, April 2009
Models Sasha Pivovarova and Vlada Roslyakova, Chanel show, April 2009
The amazing and effortless Kate Lanphear, Paris Fashion Week, April 2009
I had low blood pressure, that much I knew and that was also the result. In addition my glucose level was low.
I didn't know, and still don't frankly, what was so special about what I wore as I though it made me look very full up top (more than usual) and even fatter. But Hasbi gave me a hug that day so maybe I should wear it more lol.
Alexis Bledel
Dita Von Teese
From left to right, top row to bottom row: Oscar de la Renta sleeveless coat, Christian Lacoix dress, See by Chloé dress, and Moschino Cheap and Chic dress, all from Net-a-Porter; Marni flower necklace, from Net-a-Porter, Valentino wedges from Luisa via Roma, Christian Louboutin petal clutch bag, Fendi rose clutch, and Matthew Williamson print bag, all from Net-a-Porter; Etro top, from Browns, Luella top from Net-a-Porter, House of Holland vest from Browns, and See by Chloé skirt from Net-a-Porter; Missoni dress and Moschino dress, both from Net-a-Porter, Marni strapless dress from Browns, and Maje strapless dress from Net-a-Porter.
Of course this is from my favorite webcomic Count Your Sheep.
So, colon parenthesis everybody!!! :)
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This Friday.
This Thursday.
Yesterday's day out with the ex captured by a camera phone but failed because it's blurred plus I was having a total bad hair day.
The ex.
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Image courtesy of visadiaries.com
A real ugly picture of me with Vada and Rora while wearing old Lemony.
Pictures courtesy of Teen Vogue and JakandJil.com
Photo by Michael L. Baird of bairdphotos.com
